my favorite gay songs in no order

2HB by Roxy Music
The Boys in the Band by The Libertines
Lonely Planet Boy by New York Dolls
20th Century Boy by T Rex
Blister in the Sun by Violent Femmes
Nights of the Living Dead by Tilly + the Wall
Party Fears Two by The Associates
William, It Was Really Nothing by The Smiths
What Difference Does It Make by The Smiths
Boys Keep Swinging by David Bowie
Dancing Barefoot by Patti Smith
Sister, I'm a Poet by Morrissey [lyrics / mp3 in comments]
Why Don't You Find Out for Yourself by Morrissey
Waiting for My Man by The Velvet Underground
Lady Godiva's Operation by The Velvet Underground
Breaking the Rules by Ludus
Seeing Other People by Belle+Sebastian
Rent by Pet Shop Boys
My Insatiable One by Suede
Star Me Kitten by R.E.M.
Angst in My Pants by Sparks
Vicious by Lou Reed

et lui!

et tu?

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What Was The Drug They Named After The Event You Curated?

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Matthew Barney: holy fucking christ. hello Captain Rockstar.

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1/8th is plenty, 8 is plenty

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the Vapor Room, Haight+Steiner, San Francisco.

__merely overheard;

stylish late-20s Asian customer dude: yeah man, were you at the [indistinct] show?
tall+wide mid-30s black bouncer dude: yeah, it was okay.
[...]
bouncer: you know what i miss?
stylish: what?
bouncer: the cheap movie theater. you know, where you could see a movie for like a dollar.
stylish: oh yeah, those were great.
bouncer: no, one in particular, i mean. the one where the liquor barn is at now.
stylish: on Gough St.
bouncer: no man, it's where they put in that giant place to buy liquor.
stylish: by the arcarde?
bouncer: no man, like the giant, it's basically like a really nice barn where you can buy giant fucking liquor.
stylish: what?
bouncer: come on man. it's where they put in the behv-eh... the BevMo.
stylish: DUDE!
bouncer: yeah that one!
stylish: DUDE! you talkin about WAY back.
bouncer: yeah man! i was a little shit when all that was goin down.
stylish: i didn't know you went that far back, man. okay, here's one for you: how do you feel about... the launchpad?
bouncer: DUDE, oh my GOD.

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these dudes' knowledge of the San Francisco bay area predates mine by about 5-6 years.

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in the ballroom, Green Tortoise hostel, San Francisco [smoking section].

__another brand new person I've never met before;

m+: so what do you do in London?
English dude [who is here on his way to Burning Man]: i'm like a social worker.
[...]
m+: so what is the biggest social problem in London?
English dude: the council.
m+: what is that exactly?
English dude: it's like the local government.
m+: oh, yeah. so what's the deal? what do they do?
English dude: well, it's just not sexy. in _any_ way. also, they're tremendously fucking over the lives and livelihoods of tens of thousands of people.

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Hard, 2004

Soft, 2006

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I Am From This Neighborhood, That's Why All Those People You See Buying And Immediately Leaving Look Exactly Like Me

Your Implications Are Ridiculous

This Subject Would Not Come Up If I Did Not Have a 'Real Reason'

I Can't Believe You're Acting This Way

The Haight Is, Sadly, so over.

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I Was Already Dressing That Way First And Besides We Both Look Good

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These are 4 stills from my favorite film, Blow Job by Andy Warhol, which I have cropped into squares.

and

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I have about -6.5 vision in one of my eyes and about -6.0 in the other. I don't remember which is which. For those who aren't familiar with that particular system of numbers, it means I'm incredibly nearsighted. Minus 6.0 is, as they call it, 'off the scale' so far as the familiar 20/20 schematic goes. That scale stops at 20/400.

I once visited an optometrist who was also nearsighted. I don't know to what degree. She explained nearsightedness this way: actually, nearsighted people see more 'strongly'. She didn't quite use the word 'better' but that was the implication. We see so intensely that our brains can't process it. Intense, apparently, in a good way. As opposed to, say, a war.

I didn't know, of course, at the time, that I would probably never find another optometrist, or any other kind of medical professional, who agreed with this at all. Or would think about describing it this way. I have yet to find a doctor who thinks 'nearsighted=stronger sights than brain can handle' is a useful way to think about it.

What was particularly unusual about the moment is that it didn't seem like she was saying it for my sake or for her sake. I didn't need to hear this. She didn't seem like she needed to hear it either.

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